Fist & Palm

by Bellows

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You Are A Palm Tree
Bummer Swells
Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter
O Joy!
A Sordid Ending
Dark Heart
From The Palms


"Fist & Palm", the third full-length album by Bellows, documents the dissolving of a friendship. The album's narrative trajectory is an anti-narrative, beginning and ending in the same place: in the backyard of a shared house, on the night of a petty argument. The circularity of the album's timeline underlines an overarching theme of the record -- the realization that when the satisfaction of a real resolution is denied, beauty and meaning can be found only in its pursuit. As I pursue happiness and the discovery of beauty, I find that satisfaction exists for me only in a perpetual sense of 'going', of always moving forward, and accepting that although some goals can never be achieved, and some failures are guaranteed, there is "beauty in the certainty of never reaching what I'm after."

"Fist & Palm" was written and recorded by Oliver Kalb over the course of two writing periods. The first was a month-long song-a-day project in October 2014, from which 7 of the 31 songs written for the project were kept for the final album, and a certain sonic template was mapped out for how the record would develop the sound of Bellows as a recording project. After a heavy year of touring throughout 2015, the album was completed between October 2015 and January 2016, in a several month long fit of anxiety. James Wilcox (JCW) produced, sequenced and sampled drums on several songs, Felix Walworth (Told Slant) recorded live drums throughout the record, Gabrielle Smith (Eskimeaux) contributed violin and choral arrangements, and Jack Greenleaf (Sharpless) mixed the record and added final arrangements.


releases September 30, 2016



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Bellows is the bedroom recording project of songwriter and producer Oliver Kalb.




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Track Name: Orange Juice
Drinking orange juice from a tonic water bottle
I hate the way I always lose my cool
To be the way I wanted, but half of what I wanted was confused
Something cruel, I kept inside my pocket
I always end up sounding like a fool
End up running through a mess of bad behaviors
I’m lashing out whenever I’m with you

At the Palisades, with the tonic water bottle
The second band is saying that they’re through
So we move, but I wanna keep sippin’
I’ve always been a little bit aloof
Drinking orange juice from a tonic water bottle
You turn to me and ask me if I’m through
And I laugh at you, but I throw away my bottle
We pile up with Henry, Jack and Sue

Not so cool to have trouble saying sorry
Becoming what I never wanted to
Going blue, I’m having trouble breathing
So nervous whenever I talk to you
Drinking orange juice from a tonic water bottle
I brought it here to share the thing with you
And I knew that I was being careless, so sorry if I wasn’t very cool
Track Name: Thick Skin
Staring out your car window I feel my size
Hudson Palms, The Catskill Gulf Stream
The world’s alive!

I knew your fullness from the start, I felt your size
And I saw an ending in your face, your arms, your bed at night

And what’s better than looking for it, something you won’t find?
I’ve grown so thick skinned lately, but I wanna cry

You couldn’t see the way I let go
Surfaced from sorrow and sunk into something more gross
Cause I still fear the unknown
Don’t wanna leave the earth even for a moment

Cause what’s better than looking for it?
What’s better than lost time?
I’ve grown so thick skinned lately, but I wanna cry

So will you hold me close, then open your arms?
I want to feel you missing, to feel your warmth

Cause what’s better than looking for it, something you won’t find?
I’ve grown so thick skinned lately
But I want to cry
But I want to cry
But I want to cry