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Life goes on
After the thing you thought was life has gone
I’m so surprised to wake up
With a human face still
When in the back of my mind, I feel I’ve left something behind
And time moves along, yes
After the thing you spent your time on is in the past
Becomes a memory one day
Of a happy birthday
You turned 25, feeling panic deep inside
But you hike, you are climbing and struggling and losing ground
And climbing, and scrambling and falling and getting up
And shedding this darkness, material accumulation march
I need so much
Oooh
I count em down to zero
Oooh
I count em down to zero
I retain no friendship, no feigned connection
Every single tie that I hold
I count em down to zero
Down to zero
So what gives?
At the end of all of it, I acknowledge no failure
No cap to end it with
I say, no
I can’t let the yearning go
I still want that rose
I thought I held it years before
You hike, you are climbing and struggling and losing ground
And climbing and scrambling and falling and getting up
And bursting this glutton, this power accumulation feast
You were told you need
Oooh
I count em down to zero
Oooh
I count em down to zero
I retain no friendship, no feigned connection
Every single tie that I hold
I count em down to zero
You came for it, you worked for it
without it what’s your life for?
You came for it, you worked for it
without it what’s your life for?
You came for it, you worked for it
without it what’s your life for?
You came for it, you worked for it
Without it, what are you for?
Bad dream, dark rot
Half true, half not
I was only half mistaken when I looked into that hole
Saw what the shadow holds…
He was only half mistaken, he was only five years old
He was a little boy
Didn’t mean to hurt anyone…
Cleaned up in there
Packed up the bedroom and I got myself out of here
And I think back and I don’t care
I still don’t know how to talk to you when anyone else is there
You can’t see yourself reflected, you’re gonna need to let it go
Won’t you let it go?
If you still cannot respect it you’re gonna need to let it go
Won’t you let it go?
Every animal and baby knows what not to do
Innocent in ignorance, they don’t look at the world like you
And I’m backed up in a corner
I got no more moves
But the guilt I felt was deeper down, it had nothing to do with you
When you see that light reflected you’re gonna need to let it go
Won’t you let it go?
And though every day you try to get back on that horse and go
The horse is old
It doesn’t serve you people
And when you fear that part within you, you’re gonna need to let it go
Won’t you let it go?
Count it down to zero
When you see that light reflected you’re gonna need to let it go
Won’t you let it go?
Count it down to zero
credits
from The Rose Gardener,
released February 22, 2019
Music & lyrics by Oliver Kalb
All instruments by Oliver Kalb except:
Drums by Felix Walworth & James Wilcox
Violin and vocals by Gabrielle Smith
Vocals by Felix Walworth & Henry Crawford
"deep in the swirling space, where my body and the world collide" Incredible, fraught, deep, challenging music from Gabby. I loved working on this album!! Also, I co-produced it :) Bellows
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Point the Flashlight and Walk is my favorite thing Felix has made. It has a ton of wisdom about devotion and how love changes after relationships end. I learned a lot from this record. Bellows
Despite its themes of isolation and loneliness, Caroline White's latest batch of folk-pop confessionals is an LP brimming with confidence. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 7, 2019
